I realized I had torn the leaf apart, stripping it down to its fibrous veins. I flung away the pieces and put my face in my hands. My eyes prickled. My heart ached. Even if everything went perfectly according to plan, and I was working myself up over nothing, I faced a future I was no longer certain I could bear.
“I wish you were here, Emma,” I mumbled, wanting nothing more in that moment than my aunt’s embrace. She would know what to say. She would reassure me that I wasn’t a terrible person because there was a part of me that didn’t want to go home. Perhaps she could even convince me that I could live with myself after I buried my heart in the autumnlands and left it behind forever.
“Who’s Emma?” a cheerful voice asked, right next to my ear.
I nearly jumped out of my skin. “Lark! I didn’t know you were there.”
She sat perched on the edge of my stump like her namesake, smiling at me with her hands cupped around a pile of freshly picked blueberries. When she saw my face, her smile vanished. “You’re dripping!”
“Yes, I’ve been crying.” Seeing her raised eyebrows I added, “It’s what mortals do when we’re sad. I miss my aunt, Emma.”
“Well, stop now, please. I’ve brought you some blueberries—Gadfly told me you were out of things for your Craft. Here.” She poured the blueberries onto my lap, in the basket my skirts created between my legs. At the last moment she snatched a few back and stuffed them into her mouth.
I felt strangely touched. “Thank you, Lark. That was very thoughtful.”
“Yes, I know. I’m simply full of thoughts, but no one cares to realize it, and everyone treats me as though I’m the silliest creature in the spring court.”
“I don’t, do I?” I asked, concerned.
“No. And that’s why I like you so much!” She sprang to her feet. “Come along now, let’s find more berries.”
With a wet laugh, I plucked one of the blueberries from my lap and popped it into my mouth. Its ripe, tart flavor burst sweetly on my tongue.
A black-eyed raven alit on the uppermost branch of Rook’s tree.
Lark grinned, showing each and every one of her sharp, purple-stained teeth.
I knew I shouldn’t have eaten that berry—shouldn’t have considered eating that berry—even before the world spun in a kaleidoscopic wash of color. I plummeted downward as though a hole had opened up in the earth beneath me. The sky receded, growing smaller and smaller, surrounded by a warm, soft, rumpled darkness that I first grasped at frantically as I fell, then recognized with senseless horror as my own clothes.
I thrashed, smothered by fabric on all sides. My body wasn’t working the way it should. My face, my limbs, my very bones had taken on an alien assemblage that sent terror jittering up and down my spine. As I strained for any sense of what was going on, two long appendages swiveled on the back of my head. For some reason I sniffed, and my flexible nose twitched in response. My heart beat so rapidly I couldn’t identify the feeling at first—it was like a trapped wasp buzzing madly in my chest.
I kicked free of my clothes and hopped through the shoulder-high grass, half-blinded by the sun, finally grasping the nature of my transformation. Lark’s enchanted berry had turned me into a rabbit.
Her shriek rang out behind me, stabbing my tender ears. Impossibly, my heartbeat kicked up another notch. I thought my heart might burst as I raced toward a hawthorn bush that loomed above me higher than the tallest bell tower in Whimsy, and broader than a house. The forest had grown so dauntingly large it hardly bore looking at. I needed to get somewhere dark, safe, and enclosed, right now.
“Run, run, run!” Lark laughed. “I’m going to catch you, Isobel!”
With a dreadful unspooling of my memories I recalled what she had said to Rook the day before. Can you turn into a hare for me again and let me chase you about? I thought of the way Rook had been ignoring her in favor of paying attention to me instead.
I skidded under the bush, sending dirt and platter-sized leaves flying. My fur slid sleekly beneath branches that hung mere inches above the ground. I zipped forward, aware Lark must have seen me disappear under this bush, and judging by the sound of her laughter, she was already following.
There—a hole! But as I approached the burrow dug into the hawthorn’s roots, I shrank from the rank odor emanating from its depths. My instincts screamed Danger! Somehow, I knew the thing that lived in this hole would eat me if it got half a chance.
“Oh, you’re a quick one! I think I’ve lost you!” Through a space between the leaves I watched Lark’s gigantic feet stomp over to the bush across from mine. She bent and looked under it, her golden hair cascading down in a shimmering wave as huge as royal tapestry.
It was obviously a game to her. Surely she didn’t mean me any harm. By the sound of it, she used to play this game with Rook often. Yet if she caught me, would she understand I was a mortal rabbit, not a fair one in rabbit form? Might her fingers go around my little ribs and squeeze them just a bit too hard? I shuddered, recalling that if fair folk caught rabbits they ate them raw.
And what if she was truly upset with me for stealing Rook’s attention from her?
Before I had a chance to think about it too hard, she whipped around to stare directly at me. “There you are!” She bared her stained teeth again and scuttled forward bent at the waist, her arms extended, fingers curled into greedy claws. I spun and zoomed off, targeting a stand of honeysuckles. They weren’t as dense as I’d have liked, but I lost her by leaping behind a log coated in a thick growth of spiraling ferns. I couldn’t help but eye them as I passed. Perhaps, if I escaped, I could double around and try nibbling on some later . . .
“Isobel, Isobel!” Lark sang out sweetly. “Where have you gone, Isobel? You know I’m going to find you. I can hear you! I can smell you!” The ground shook, and great crashing sounds came from behind me as she thundered into the honeysuckles. “You’re just a silly hare!”
A silly hare! A silly hare! The words ricocheted between my ears, losing their meaning as my whole being narrowed down to a single primal urge: survival. I lived to run. Emerald light and leafy shadows whipped past, my body bunching and stretching straight as an arrow with every stride. I dodged to avoid stones and roots in my path. If I zigged one way, then zagged another, the beast lumbering behind me would get confused and fall behind.
I froze on top of a boulder to look back. My nose spasmed with the effort of getting enough air, flaring red. Heat evaporated from my ears. The pursuer had stopped to look under a log. Mightily, it flipped the log with its upper appendages. Even from a distance I heard soft bark crumbling, tender ferns uprooting and tearing. One of my ears rotated of its own accord to better take in the sounds. Then the pursuer straightened. Danger! I dove from the boulder and streaked across the clearing. One of the stumps in the clearing seemed familiar to me: it had fabric draped over it, and teacups beside it. I was unsettled by the sight, as I might be by seeing a hawk’s shadow pass over the ground.
And then, from an angle I did not expect, a predator descended.
No! No! No!
I was caught!
I kicked my feet and twisted, screaming, showing my teeth. Giant hands had seized me, and now lifted me. The sun flashed in my eyes—the world soared dizzyingly—and the grip that held me was too firm for escape. I drummed my feet against the creature’s chest, but he cradled me so close I couldn’t move my legs, and lifted some of his clothes to press my face inside.
Enclosed darkness. Muffled sounds. I stopped struggling, thinking that perhaps the peril had ended. In the sudden quiet only my heart galloped on. The sound of it filled my ears and shook my body in swift, rhythmic pulses.
“Lark,” the creature said. He didn’t shout. I sensed he didn’t have to. His voice was like a cruel wind, stripping everything in its path to the marrow. “What have you done?”
A petulant voice answered. “You don’t play with me anymore, Rook! No one pays attention to me except for her! And you’re trying to keep her all to yourself—it isn’t fair!”
Nose twitching anxiously, I burrowed farther into my captive’s garments. That voice was Danger! But the smell of the creature that held me, a crisp leaf-smell, a night-air smell, was safe.